My number one fear was that I would never be the same again. I wasn’t going to be able to do the things I loved, be the person I was, or live the life I wanted. I was right to be afraid…
Concussions. I instantly relate them to football, headaches, and athletes. I never thought I’d be the one dealing with the symptoms of a traumatic brain injury. For over 8 weeks now, I have been given strict orders (over and over again) to do NOTHING until I feel no more pain. But the pain resides, and only gets numbed by pharmaceuticals that I don’t want to be ingesting in the first place.
Working out. Oh How I miss working out every.single.day. Now? Running to the mailbox and back requires a 15 minute recovery window and hamstring cramps. Why did I run?
Thinking. In the beginning, I was afraid my mind would never be the same. How could I think the same way if I couldn’t move the same way? How could I be the same person, if I couldn’t be as quick, smart, and knowledgeable as usual. I can’t learn as quickly. I can’t stay focused on a single thing. My mind is all over the place. Overactive. Underactive. Unbalanced.
Working. I miss work. I miss training. I miss conversing with my coworkers and clients. I miss Fisha, our maintenance guy who is always the sweetest soul. I miss it all, yet its right around the block. I just can’t go in because my head will pound, my muscles will lock up, and my tears will roll. All I want to do is work, be productive, and be worthy. But I’m stuck with post concussion syndrome.
Living I hate being a burden. I hate being a sick person. I want to love on everyone else. I want to bring you hot tea and run your bath. I want to let you cry on my shoulder, but I don’t want to be that person in YOUR life. I don’t want to be an inconvenience to anyone or thing – ever. It’s my main concern, yet it shouldn’t be.
Self-Care If you’ve been following along my posts, you know I have a tumultuous relationship with food and body image. Well having my appetite center (amygdala – 4 F’s – Fear, Fighting, F*cking, Feeding) messed with, my anorexia has only made healing harder on me. The brain injury, the torn and damaged muscles just aching as I sit here and type this, and then my digestion disease acting up – my entire body from brain to toes is out of whack right now! It was so balanced and at it’s peak before I had a simple fall.
Life Lesson One second can change the rest of your life. And when that one second comes, you have to make a choice about what you want from here on out. Do I want to continue doing what made me so happy? Am I capable of doing it without pain, fear, and causing more injury? I’m not sure yet.
This was the 2nd time I was in the ER this year, so I honestly feel like the Universe (or my own energy, I create my own destiny) is trying to tell me to SLOW DOWN and evaluate the situation. Evaluate my career path and trajectory.
I obligated myself into a fitness position because of my FOGW. Fear Of Gaining Weight. I never wanted to be a “fat person” so training would obligate me to looking good for as long as my career. I fell in LOVE with training and realized it was 90% psychology, 10% anatomy and physical training. I found out, like the Guerrillas say:
So you can survive when law is lawless (right here)
Feelings, sensations that you thought was dead
No squealing, remember that it’s all in your head
I ain’t happy, I’m feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I’m useless but not for long
The future is coming on
Conclusions I don’t know any. It is up to my brain and body to choose their own timeline of healing. If you’ve had experience with any of these feelings, please leave a comment below!
So I’m taking this break, and letting me rest, so I can be someone better, so I can be MY best.
In order to stay motivated and on task, we have to set goals for ourselves. Whether they are career goals, relationship goals, or fitness goals, they require time, patience, preparation, and a plan.
This Fall I’m looking to improve my cycling endurance, gain strength, and shred a little more fat.
Here is the plan I’ve made for the next 4-6 weeks:
I devised it using Google Drive Spreadsheets. I used IIFYM calculator, also known as If It Fits Your Macros. They have a great Fat Loss Calculator along with their famous macros calculator. According to IIFYM, if I want to lose 4% more body fat, I will have to eat 1500 calories a day, train 6 days a week, and stick to my plan for at least 5 weeks to see results.
If you want to get serious about athletic performance, you need to focus on correct macros. The best way to acheive your goals is by seeing a trainer. Don’t haphazardly go about fitness. If you want more flexibility, make a plan for it. If you want awesome back and arms, then work for it. If you want less love handles and more definition, then plan it out. You can come to me for a FREE fitness assessment and I’ll help you get started.
If you want to know more about acheiving your goals, please contact me today.
PS: Fall may be here but that is no reason for your efforts at the gym to fall as well. Stay strong and healthy year-round, even on holidays! If you want fitness to be your lifestyle, and if you want to stop “starting over,” then stop giving up! Just because it’s Thanksgiving doesn’t mean you have to skip your gym day or take a WEEK off! Let your mind rest from work, but keep your body healthy and well.
A relationship with food is similar to all other relationships you encounter in daily life, such as with a friend, spouse, or business partner. These take time, preparation, planning, dedication, comittment, care, thought, and more. You have to schedule time and activities to maintain these relationships and to keep them healthy. Your relationship with food should align with the efforts in your other relationships. Do you slack off remembering birthdays, cheat on your spouse, and play hooky at work? Do you also find yourself slacking at the gym (or not going!), cheating on your healthy diet, and forfeiting the idea to challenge yourself physically? Continue reading
I am so excited to share with you my new plan to lose 4% of my body weight in 4 weeks! The plan includes all you need to succeed at losing the weight that is holding you back. I … Continue reading
“No matter how hard you live healthy and happy, like a marathon runner who drops dead from a heart attack, uncontrollable s**t is always going to come flying your way.”
I’m one of those people who learns things the hard way. I must go through them, I can’t just be told. I’m not a cheater; I take every test life has to give and put in my full effort. No skipping out on the hardships, no skimming over the good times, I’m a full on, balls to wall kinda gal. Well this year is no exception to the rule. The universe has decided to throw me a few curve balls but fortunately, I know I’m not the only batter up. Continue reading
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I usually write about physical wellness but it’s time I put my feelings out there and open up. Here goes a rant of thoughts I’ve been having…
In our time of social media and absolute difficulty of disconnecting, we are never alone. But you may find times of the night you are lonely. You don’t just want attention from the world, but you find a need for it. You pick up your phone, call, text, or tweet. We all do it. We’re weak. We can’t just sit and be fine – alone. Indefinitely alone in a moment of time.
It’s no shame, I’m on every single platform there is. I was raised on AOL/AIM, then Myspace, and now Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, WordPress, Pinterest, and the list goes on. Sometimes I want to just disconnect. Sometimes I want to wander out into nature and enjoy life the way it was supposed to be enjoyed: tactile, fresh, real, live. IRL. In Real Life.
We need this. We all need this. I read a quote this week that said if you experience insomnia, a week in a tent in the woods without any cell phones or internet resets your circadian rhythm. Besides your internal dark/lightness monitor, it resets your mental status. You become connected to a whole new self-fulfilling fullness. Nature. Fresh Air. Life.
So we can’t all just get up and go camping randomly, or have the know-how or equipment. But we can turn off technology, log out, log off, and go for a hike or walk. We can and we should more often.
Make our own music. Make our own entertainment. Ride a bike in dirt instead of to/from work. Write a song. Talk. Read a real book. Get lost. Find yourself. Relax. Truly, relax.
Disconnect to be able to reconnect.
I’ve officially joined hands with Erik Strouse to change lives, create healthy habits, and help people lose weight over the next 8 weeks. It’s the Vida Fitness Weight Loss Challenge, and I’m ready to WIN. But that’s not why I’m so excited today…
I’m truly passionate about training. The fire inside me is incited when I meet someone who is lost, hopeless, and slightly inspired to change. I wake up, get excited, and jump for joy that I get to come into someone’s life and help them become happier. Nobody is joyous when their health is waning, their confidence is low, and their body is ill. I want to be that person that enters your life and changes it all. That’s what my life is about, that’s what my job is about, and now that is what this competition is about.
I want my team to be inspired, elevated, excited, and just as passionate about health and fitness as I am. I’m writing this to you, team. I’m here to make a difference, and I want you to be committed. I want this to be that program that opened your eyes and made you think differently. I’m here for you 24/7, even if I only see you 3x per week. I want my face, my workouts, and my nutrition tips in your mind 24/7. All day, every day – health. Health. Health.
When following the nutrition plan, write down what you eat and don’t lie to me or yourself. When you come into the workout, be energized and ready to work. Don’t make excuses. Don’t fail. Don’t give up. Trust and believe in the process. Trust and believe in yourself. You can do this. You can all do this, together.
Tis’ the season for skipping workouts, splurging on decadent dishes, and sitting around drinking hot cocoa. Most of the time this means an expanding waist line and a larger number on the scale. All does not need to be lost during the holidays!
Plan For Success
The best way to avoid gaining weight in the next two weeks is to make a plan. Plan your workouts, plan your portions, and plan your discipline! You’ll have at least 25 minutes from the time you wake up to the time you are expected at family events. In this short period of time, you can fit in body weight exercises to boost your metabolism and break the hump of inactivity.
The moment you awake, start your workout in your pjs! Barefoot and all, you only need the space the size of a yoga mat. Combine the following moves for a quick pre-shower workout:
50 Jumping Jacks
40 Mountain Climbers
30 Air Squats
10 Tricep Dips
Do 3 rounds and hop in the shower. You’ll be thankful you planned this out! For a more advanced version, try this:
50 Mountain Climbers
40 Jump Squats
30 Reverse Lunges
20 Decline Pushups (Place feet on bed/chair)
10 Tricep Dips (Place legs straight)
Perform 3-4 rounds.
You Are In Control
Remember that you CAN say no to the extra slice of pie, huge servings, and punch bowl. Limit your portions, but still enjoy a bite of something you truly want. (Like your mom’s famous mashed potatoes!) Keep discipline in mind as you make it through the few celebrations.
Plan Family ACTIVE-ities
Ask your siblings, cousins, aunts, and uncles to join in an active game. Toss around a football, play tag, or walk to get your coffee. Spend time with family that requires some sort of activity. Try turning on some holiday music and dancing around, skip the eletric beater and beat those egg whites into a foam by hand! Try to get creative in every situation you can.
Enjoy yourself. Remember to indulge if you really want something. Just be conscious of your activity, and get back on your healthy track ASAP. If you have an extra slice, cookie, or nog, go an extra round in the morning workout.
Vida Fitness Weight Loss Challenge
If you’re looking to lose a large amount of weight come 2014, I’ve got the challenge for you!
Do you need a serious change? Do you need to lose more than 20lbs? I’ve got the challenge for you! Vida Fitness is hosting a Three-Team Weight Loss Competition, with it’s 3 BEST trainers: Nicole Davidsohn (me!), Erik Strouse, and Andrew Gallagher. We’ll go head to head to help our teams lose the MOST weight over a 6-week period. The cost is 70% OFF Personal Training rates (WOW!).
Enjoy your holiday, because this will Kick.Your.Butt.
I’m hosting TEAM #3 and we’ll meet Wednesday AND Friday at 5pm, Plus Saturday at 9:30am.
Here’s what you get!
(3) 1-Hour long sessions per week for 6 weeks
A Comprehensive Nutrition Program (High Protein or Plant-Based) WITH Shopping List!
24 hour/7 day a week guidance and coaching from yours truly
***Winning Team receives 1 month VIDA Membership free***
LIMITED to 6 Participants
70% OFF Personal Training Rates!
Contact me today to join the team!
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PS: Body fat % must be over 25% for women, over 20% for men to join. This is a serious Weight-Loss challenge, not an aesthetic competition. We want to help you make a change that will last forever.