Update #2

Update #2


Dear Public Diary, Healers, and Fellow IBD Sufferers,

It’s been ten days of my CBD regimen of cold-steeped organic olive oil infused with the whole plant herb, the ACDC strain of cannabis.

I have noticed I have less pain and symptoms on my day off. When I have a day of work ahead, I notice waking up with anxiety and feeling the need to unwind immediately. I’m noticing more and more how I create my own illness, and exactly what I need to be doing to take care of myself. The main points are to check in with myself and see how I’m feeling every moment of the day. I’ve increased my meditation into my car rides during work. I find it helpful to remind myself, “Notice how you’re breathing. Now take a deep slow breath.”

I have had some bouts of pain and cramps, but am eating whole foods once again. I have upped my dose to 20 drops 3x/day during work days, and 10 drops 3x/day on Monday, my day off. I’m also taking my turmeric daily, 2 pills, or about 800mg.  I have found my THC tolerance to be super low now and if I smoke too much THC-dominant cannabis, I don’t like how I feel. It makes me dizzy and almost drunk. Less is more! I believe this means I’m starting to heal my Endocannabinoid System, but need to do more research.

I am also exercising lightly each day. I got my bike tuned up so I can do some low-impact exercise using my biggest muscles – quad and booty. I’ve lost way too much weight over the past few weeks, and really want to build back some muscle. It’s funny, my historical anorexic Nicole would be absolutely thrilled with my tiny, skinny body. My healthy Nicole, my true self, knows I need to gain a little weight the healthy way – exercise and protein shakes.

I’m feeling better as I write my emotions, sing each day, meditate, medicate, and exercise. Holistic medicine really DOES work. :)

Until next time… love and peace to all.


The Inside Snippet – My Invisible Disease

The Inside Snippet – My Invisible Disease

I’ve been taking CBD oil for almost 3 days now and smoking mainly CBD cannabis. Some interesting things have been occurring. Here is your inside snippet:
The ACDC oil has helped reduce my pain and cramps so far. I’ve tried the strain Harlequin and it puts me right to sleep, so I like the ACDC better for all day pain relief. 
So far I’m taking 10 drops 2-3x/day, depending on pain. I’m taking 10 drops in the morning, smoking one CBD strain joint, and drinking one green vegetable juice. In midday, between 2-4pm, I’ll take another 10 drops with whatever juice/soup I’ll be ingesting. At night it seems the pain increases as my body and mind gets more tired from the day’s tasks, so last night I took 20 drops of CBD and smoked THC cannabis to reduce pain and get to sleep.
As for other CBD strains, I have been enjoying a strain the farmer called “Tonic” that is 10% CBD and 0.5% or less of THC. It takes away my anxiety and ADD tendencies, increasing my focus without panic. The best part is that I can drive and go in public  since it doesn’t alter my “euphoric” center. It reminds me of a light Xanax or anti-anxiety med. It gives me a sense that it’s rewiring my brain because I noticed my emotional reactions to stress have been lessened after smoking it daily, compared to THC creating more emotion, sensitivity, and anxiety. (This is probably why I’m a hermit crab when smoking High THC!) 
The “pennywise” strain has made me sleepy and the ACDC makes my body very sleepy, from the high levels of myrcene. So for daily medicating, I really like the Tonic best to smoke and the ACDC oil best for pain.
New Findings:
Finally, at the end of the night, when I get off work past midnight (closing time), I sit down to have my THC cannabis. The first night after smoking and ingesting CBD all day, I passed right out with just one single hit of THC-dominant cannabis. I knew I was exhausted but soon realized the next day, I was super sensitive to THC again! Something has occurred inside of me that has made me very sensitive to THC. I believe it’s the synergistic effect happening, of the cannabinoids activating each other. Since my body hasn’t had this much CBD on a consistent, dosed basis before, the THC hasn’t had a chance to act accordingly. 
After smoking one joint of a THC-dominant cannabis strain, I felt almost drunk. I had the spins and felt like gravity had turned up to 20x. This is what happens to me when I have too much THC; I need to lay down in a dark room and not make any effort to speak or move. [That just reminded of the anti-pot girl melted on the couch commercial and the dog is like “What happened to you? We used to play.”]
Cannabis works on a bell curve: too little doesn’t work and too much doesn’t work well medically for a consistent basis. I’m learning and feeling this exact curve and learning my dosing rate. Everyone will have a personal rate of need for cannabinoids depending on your personal deficiency. 
Other details of my holistic healing regimen:
I’m enjoying my 21-Day Meditation Challenge with Oprah and Deepak. This is my second challenge with them, and I would highly recommend this type of meditation for beginners. This round is focusing on my belief system and core beliefs: love, self-worth, security, and wholeness. Taking 20 minutes a day for guided, contemplative meditation keeps me focused for most of the day on the mantra. Today was about turning beliefs into actions, as well as focusing on all 4 core beliefs and how I externalize them in my life.
I’m still on a liquid diet and made some potato-parsnip soup today from scratch. I used my vitamix and it came out very smooth and yummy! I really hope I’m not on a liquid diet by Thanksgiving so I can enjoy some sweet potato mash and marshmallows. As for all my other meals, I’m drinking organic green juice by SujaJuice or having a broth/smooth soup. Due to the low calories, I am losing some weight, unfortunately, but know I’ll be healed up and eating very soon once again.
For my exercise, I have been dancing 20-30 minutes per day to 90’s pop songs. Music and dancing really helps me forget about whatever pain I may be in in those moments, and gets my lymphatic system and fluid flowing so I don’t feel so much pain all over. I’m still experiencing random pains from my fibromyalgia and nerve damage, so moving around a little bit each day is a must.
Still taking 2-4oz Aloe Juice and 4-800mg Turmeric Supreme
Best Health To You,
My Invisible Disease – Healing with Holistic Medicine

My Invisible Disease – Healing with Holistic Medicine


My name is Nicole and I have Ulcerative Colitis. It’s an embarrassing disease inflicting my lifestyle each and every day. I’ve been prescribed multiple pharmaceuticals to manage the pain and inflammation, but refuse to take them on account of their side effects. I’ve moved to California to heal holistically and am now able to begin that journey. After finding an organic CBD cannabis farmer, a farmer who focuses on the most medicinal strains of cannabis, I have the ability to start a regimen. From here forward I will document how my daily use of CBD-Rich cannabis manages my pain and inflammation from my UC.  I will start by smoking CBD Cannabis daily, as well as ingesting a raw CBD enriched organic olive oil tincture, made by Professor Snook. Unrecorded attempts to keep the inflammation down will include my plan in place:

  • a very strict low-fiber diet (no raw vegetables, no grains except soft corn and rice)
  • no dairy
  • no gluten
  • low-sugar
  • No beef or alcohol
  • Limited to no caffeine
  • Aloe vera juice daily 2oz
  • Turmeric taken daily 450mg
  • Will start juicing cannabis when possible
  • Daily green juices, smoothies, protein shakes for easy digestion and absorbtion
  • Daily meditation (20 minutes minimum)
  • Some type of physical activity 3x/week (Gardening, dancing, walking, stretching, or yoga)

Here is a snippet of my day:

Upon waking: Felt anxious, had stomach pains and cramps, back pain and torso pain
12pm Medication: Smoked one raw cone of ACDC, 24% CBD, high in myrcene
Feeling after: Limited pain, was able to distract myself from it and meet with the farmer

2pm: Pain comes back, humming and singing to distract from sharp pains
Medication: Smoked 1 bowl of “Tonic” 10% CBD 0% THC. 10 drops ACDC Olive Oil.
Feeling: Calm. Almost sleepy. Focused on task at hand. Hungry, Less pain. Forgot I was in pain.

3:27pm: Slowly eating first meal of pumpkin soup. 1 cup.

Notes on Tonic Strain: Makes very focused on task on hand.

6:00pm Drank half a Suja Protein Shake

6:25pm Pain came back again. Smoked a bowl of ACDC. Feel very sleepy and hungry now. Pain is subsiding.

6:30pm All I want to do is sleep now.

It’s exhausting being sick. I used to say, “I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired,” when I had the flu or a cold. But now I have no choice but to manage it, and be well and energized from my good management. UC is an autoimmune disease. It’s simply the body fighting itself for no good reason. I have to make sure to weaken it’s fighting power and restore homeostasis with the cannabinoids. Taking care of myself should be #1. The only reason it’s exhausting and annoying is because I put other things first, such as, well everything.

I feel this way every day:

Man surprised me most about humanity. Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money.
Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies having never really lived.”-Dalai Lama

By no means am I trying to sacrifice my health here to work in a holistic health field. I’m starting from a hereditary and “previous life choices” debt in health and must work back to balance. By working in this field, I have the appropriate access to the people and herbs that I need to heal myself. And I plan on sharing my journey and teaching others how to heal themselves as well.

My recreational teenage use of cannabis, my experience as a vegan for 7 years, and my training and nutrition background, have all prepared me to tackle this disease. It is now in my power to find a cure to Ulcerative Colitis and help millions of other sick and helpless people. When the doctor told me there is no way to prevent this and no way to cure it, I had two choices: wallow in pharmaceutical pain until death or manage it holistically and live a higher quality of life. What would you choose?

A Harsh Review: HighTimes CannabisCup 2015

A Harsh Review: HighTimes CannabisCup 2015

Screen Shot 2015-06-22 at 10.40.31 PMI attended the High Times Cannabis Cup this past weekend in search of knowledge, vendors, and business partners. I found a huge stoner party, equipped with ghetto rappers such as Lil’ Debbie, free dabs at every booth, and the endless supply of concert-priced nachos and french fries. I know this sounds like heaven for all of you stoners [and it was tons of fun], but as a business woman going in, I hoped for more organized professionalism.

Screen Shot 2015-06-22 at 10.34.05 PM


I would like to see High Times get a little more strict with their entries. There was only a small section of organic, solvent-less concentrates/extracts. As a sensitive, allergic-to-everything patient, I only vape solvent-less meds. Every other category was made using solvents such as butane, propane, iso-propane, etc. I expect a “medical” cannabis cup to serve only medicine – NOT extracts with >600ppm of butane. I understand this is the trend in the industry right now, but HighTimesMagazine is the media for cannabis users. It needs to SAY NO to impurities and be a good role model. 


I would like to see High Times get more organized in general. I understand your Cup has expanded rapidly in the past five years, but please, put responsible, organized, planners in charge of these things. Entry and exit was a mess, food supply was very poor and disgusting, and there was no one to direct you anywhere.

[[I would also like girls in short skirts to not bribe me with vape pens to vote for their collective. I even said, “No thank you, isn’t that breaking the rules?”Also, your flavors make me sneeze. No thanks on additives.]] 


Before taking any samples, I asked how the product was made.  Just like grocery shopping, I’m an avid label reader. The problem with this was that only one person in each booth knew the answer to this question. The owner/scientist/creator/grower was one person, who was usually busy. Everyone else was a hot girl dressed sexy to pack you hits and smile pretty. (Fun touch, but slightly demeaning to a new woman business owner.)

[[Note: If you own a dispensary, please educate everyone who works for you! If you sign up for a convention, make sure you have enough educated volunteers to help you. Help our industry grow up.]]


High Times should have an industry-only night before or after the Cup. Some of us come for business first, play second. It would be super awesome to sit around with all the professionals who would like to network, partner up, or expand. Also, an opportunity to talk to investors would be appreciated.

Please don’t be surprised at my choice of professional language, scientific questions, and the use of a business card. No, I do NOT want to contact you by DM on Instagram. Please grow up.

Screen Shot 2015-06-22 at 10.34.22 PM

Besides the crowd of “stoners running businesses,” I met some great people. They agreed on organic and eco-friendly standards, medicine being tested for purity, and required you to join the collective before hitting their products. These will receive an email or phone call for future partnership.

Wrap it Up

I will give everyone the benefit of the doubt and say they’re trying their best. I apologize if I offended anyone or put anyone down. I enjoyed my time and am thankful for attending the event. I will attend another one and hope that it has grown.

Screen Shot 2015-06-22 at 10.33.19 PM
Founders of Harborside
Coming Out of the Closet : My Cannabis Confession

Coming Out of the Closet : My Cannabis Confession

It was a hot summer night as we laid and looked up at the stars. We were giggly, aloof, and hungry… Read more

Ramble On

Ramble On

My number one fear was that I would never be the same again. I wasn’t going to be able to do the things I loved, be the person I was, or live the life I wanted. I was right to be afraid…

Read more

Post Concussion Syndrome

Post Concussion Syndrome

Concussions. I instantly relate them to football, headaches, and athletes. I never thought I’d be the one dealing with the symptoms of a traumatic brain injury. For over 8 weeks now, I have been given strict orders (over and over again) to do NOTHING until I feel no more pain. But the pain resides, and only gets numbed by pharmaceuticals that I don’t want to be ingesting in the first place. Read more